new department

happy!

medical department..a very busy department, however..here you can meet the very nice specialist and medical officers. i loike!

until now, i can accept MR LW extended me at surgical.. he is so arrogant, malignant kind of specialist. I HATE HIM, HE IS RACIST, VERY RACIST!!

bad day again?

today.. my feeling was good

happy reviewing cases..

hmm.. suddenly.. oh. got procedure to be done ..cvl insertion. to insert a short line.

i didt do.. i just assist.. but i have already did the procedure.

and wanna give other people chances~~

hmm

after the procedure, my mo scolded me.

she said..she did ask for another person to insert the short line ..
she said.. that ho capable to do.. he is good in work. :) im so angry. huh? so im not capable ...? i'm not good in work?

im not good. but he is not that good..

really not..
hmm... they just see things to settle
but who is working behind them..

just now in ward... unable to set branula.. ivdu.. pt i/o.. very hard.. that ho not able to insert..ask me.. then, my work all pending..

lalala lalala
then im the one who are to be blame

how can i handle the ward alone..
althought i know i can.. but my heart is not there anymore.

when mo keep searching for my mistakes..
when my clerking goes wrong..
..
when everything not in the right place..

then.. it started

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i promised to myself..
i want to work at kk or periphery hosp.. no houseman...
so that...hmmmm


i need a motivator plsss!!

ya Allah, please send me a motivator ..

verily with every difficulty there is a relief

so, verily with every difficulty there is a relief.

I dont think im kind of jonah person. But im workaholic.. I think so.

The best moment in surgical department.. ~ working with one registra Chinese doctor~ Dr L. Hahaha. At first met him, he is kind of out spoken.. but, i loikee.. i like people who are out spoken, he will tell what's your fault on the spot.. it was harsh~ but, it is very true to accept. I think i like the way he worked. Very punctual, early to start round.. smooth round.. good plan (reasonable) and fast. The best is he is very comitment in work. He is smart too. The best is to settle what we have start~ thats what i learn from him.

By the way, it is not important anymore~

Things happen, i have been extended in the most cool department..the department i used to like most. Department which i think im fuctioning the most. ^ ____ ^

Since then.. the weather changed from a bright day to dark * ____ *

I didt enjoy what im doing anymore..
Everyday i feel tiring and boring

And the worst is.. everyday.. it is raining.

Anyway.There some good people around me..who trust on me, who knows the best on me~ May God bless them :)

And to those, who keep searching for my mistakes~ hoho
I do mistakes.. its a learning process

However, i believe that..

Verily with every difficulty there is a relief.

Chill

sad

so sad

IT IS REALLY UNFAIR!!

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THEY EXTENDED ME FOR ANOTHER 3 MONTHS BUT THEY LET OTHER PEOPLE GO WITHOUT ANY ASSESMENT.

unfair is it?

im so sad

Active again :)

yeay