bad day again?

today.. my feeling was good

happy reviewing cases..

hmm.. suddenly.. oh. got procedure to be done ..cvl insertion. to insert a short line.

i didt do.. i just assist.. but i have already did the procedure.

and wanna give other people chances~~

hmm

after the procedure, my mo scolded me.

she said..she did ask for another person to insert the short line ..
she said.. that ho capable to do.. he is good in work. :) im so angry. huh? so im not capable ...? i'm not good in work?

im not good. but he is not that good..

really not..
hmm... they just see things to settle
but who is working behind them..

just now in ward... unable to set branula.. ivdu.. pt i/o.. very hard.. that ho not able to insert..ask me.. then, my work all pending..

lalala lalala
then im the one who are to be blame

how can i handle the ward alone..
althought i know i can.. but my heart is not there anymore.

when mo keep searching for my mistakes..
when my clerking goes wrong..
..
when everything not in the right place..

then.. it started

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i promised to myself..
i want to work at kk or periphery hosp.. no houseman...
so that...hmmmm


i need a motivator plsss!!

ya Allah, please send me a motivator ..